Life

Lots of things has been happening, for the past 11 months, and one of the most extreme happened past few days.

As i was blog hopping around my own friend list, i came into one which really got me to think. SOOtotlikxiangs blog.. haha.. It was a post where he mentioned about Jekyll and Hyde, how he wish life was simpler, and other stuffs. And i certainly agree on that fully.

Reflecting on my 20 years of living, life during young, and living life now, is certainly so different. In this modern age, in this world where people only seek self-interest, and will do whatever to take to reach it goals. I admit i was
delusioned by it also. It happened when i was so focused and was willing to do whatever to take it back where the fact is its already gone. It took me such a long time to realize such a simple stuffs.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything happen according to God's plan and according to His Big Picture. Choices are given to us, temptation and opportunity are given, and God is up there looking, seeing how do we make use of it. How do we make the most out of our opportunity, and how to do we learn from mistakes. It is certainly not easy handling all of them, but it's gonna be worth it at the end of the day.

I believe that when words are spoken face-to-face, it speaks much louder than msn, or whatever text message or any other form of conversation. That talk over the phone gave me a wake up call. There wasn't any hope left between me and you. It's not gonna work out anymore. You've already fallen for another person after all that's happen. You do not trust me anymore and will not trust me because of all the mistakes i've made.

I've only learnt how to treasure u after the breakup. But i guess, its all too late?
But i believe that this has really taught me a lot. Some with me realizing it and some of them i will realize it on the way. It's never easy and it won't be easy. Facing u as a normal person with the person that i distrust most, it'll be one of the greatest challenge and test given to me. But i'll make use of my time in Korea to build up self-control. With God's help, with His strength, i can archieve this.

Ok time to hit the books. No more of this. Sorry for troubling my closest friends that i bugged when i was rock bottom. I'm gonna rise, and this time stronger as ever.

*zack*risingup.